So as you can see I haven't posted in quite some time. I actually got tired of myself repeating the same old things I know I'm hurt and now I'm angry and I'm sad And I know I've been lost. All my previous post have been about me. But I have retire from this constant deluge of my grief, anger and loss. However the  therapeutic use of writing has not waned. I may have stop myself fro grief but when I finally opened my eyes I saw that same grief all around me. I would like to share some of the words I put to paper for them. Please keep in mind thes storie are only for us to share and can dot be used outside of this forum
This first one is for my friend and her "love me don't love me" separated husband.   Song /"Wake Up"

Lying In bed

Got these thoughts in my head

Thinking about the last words that were said

Like a movie scrip better written than read. 

Your got me turned around and all fucked in my head

You think your such a man 

And I'm under your spell

Oh,  what am I without you but an empty shell?

You're so damn stupid

You think your running this game

Think Your the man and it's your woman you tame..... 

So..... Wake up!!

You try to break up 

And then you try and make up

Selling me all your sweet lies 

Expecting me to empathize

But the one thing that I know is true 

Is that I'm not that stupid and I'm better than you!

You think you've fooled me with your little puppet show

Sadly, your the joker in a solo role 

Spinning all your promises into a golden web of lies

Please you little man, I won't be victimized!

 

Someday your going to wake up 

Your conceit will have a shake up 

And after begging me to make up

It's your your offer I won't take up 

You lasted two damn days before you fell to your knees, and cried to me saying ...

please baby baby please!!! 

If respect is what I'm due, 

than know that I'll fucking take it from you. 

Wake up! Shake  up! Try to make up! 

Silly little fool, we're all laughing at you. 

So wake up!! Cuz one thing that we know is true 

is I'm not that stupid and I'm better that you!

....